“Piscean” That I Am

Yes I am a Dreamer!!! Dreams,Dreams & Dreams…

Life full of imagination, emotional feelings high.. Heart being simple and pure, I dream of flying high..

Yes I do expect people to not to hurt, broken sometimes I feel, the world is so pervert..

No promises to keep, tearfull eyes as an when I weep.. 

I boot and reboot myself time an again, sometimes I get success, sometimes I fail.. 

That corner of my heart , still not successful in finding that true love, it’s just about that flat curve.. 

All I know that I will never give up, face the ups and downs of life, with a big chin up.. 

Spirituality is what keeps me going, that true pure waves keeps flowing.. 

Some day I will be  united with that one person whom I belonged , my dear “ Master” this life and beyond.. 

Till then I will dream , dream and dream..The true piscean that I am.. 

~ Mish 

Once a "FAUJI" always a "FAUJI"

So finally I get a chance to interview you. Well it may not be a right place to start an interview, as we are sitting on the backseat of a taxi and heeding to a place for New Year celebration , but its hard to find a suitable place and steal time from your hectic corporate life, so I guess, its good to utilize this time and begin.  

Just to give readers a background , I have been trying to interview my husband , who served Army and is working at a senior position in the corporate world. 

Do I have a choice? he laughingly replied..Shoot. 

So why is it said " once a Fauji, always a Fauji"? 

It is to do with the institution of the Fauj. You learn, grow and understand life in a very righteous way and in a particular discipline. The journey from being a man to a gentleman. One can leave army by choice, but what it has given to an individual , that no one can take away.  So the leanings still remain and memories you create never fade off.  The trainings are very tough and the routine and regime are very tight. You learn each and everyday, how to outstretch your capabilities and those outstretching finally helps you in shaping what you become. So what you become, will always exist. 

So you still a Fauji, even though you left Fauj long back in 2005? 

Yes, as I said what the institution gives, always remains.

Is "Fauj" about Patriotism  and my country my pride only ? 

No, its not like that only. It's more to do with the people you are with, in "Fauj" we call Camaraderie. The heroic acts that you hear happen not only due to patriotism only, it's more about with whom you are working with, the Regiment, the Battalion. As we say - Naam, Namak & Nishan. Naam being the honor of your Regiment, Battalion , Namak -  Loyalty towards your organization and team you are with and Nishan -  keeping your flag high. Flag of your Regiment and your country. So basically "Fauj" is all about living life for your people, country and serving with pride. 

What made you join "Fauj"?

Primarily it was feeling of  Patriotism. Wanted to serve my country. Until one enters " Fauj" we don't know what other things it has to offer. In my case journey from turning from a cadet into an officer. 

To be Continued…

Reason why I am alive

Ever since I realized that people may come and go from life, the reality being that we exist and exist in it all senses. My spiritual guides presence is what I breath day in and day out. His physical form left us in 2014, but his last words “ I am with you in spirit, all the time, please believe me, when I say so”, is what keeps me going.

I observed some walked few steps and left, some promised to be together, but left me in mid, it was him only “My Master”, who never made me feel that I was walking alone, in this journey called life. Being in his constant remembrance added meaning in life. The miseries tried to make my life awful  , but I believe that he held my hand  and made me pass through the stormy path of life. The reality of life is very different. I sometimes feel very puzzled and  amused to people who verbally say that we care, but reality being far from it. 

The only few words I have on my mind going right now is -Though I have no one with me right now, I may be visibly alone , but you are within me in my real sense and my existence. You are the reason why I am still walking on the path of life, The reason why I am alive. With all gratitude to My spiritual Master, in his holy feet.

~ Mish

Wings to Fly

Like a sleeping beauty, dozing on my pillow, I thought that Mr. Right would drop in;to kiss my fears away and fill my heart with love. Then came the love of life, holding the placard - "Wings to fly". The feeling was awesome, ever romantic, but what was this -"Wings to fly" about?

W- Woman ,  I – I’ll , N- Nurture  your, G-Good  , S- Self  , for --To- too many years - - F- Flowing my , L- Love , Y – Don’t ask me why?

This is the explanation I learned over the years, after living with my "Prince Charming". Fairy tales are mere dreams and imagination, a real person is the one who holds your hand for life and never lets you ask why?

The inspiration behind this write up; my darling, my love, who held my hand and never made me ask why? I have made it large with him and am still flying high, hoping others get their "Wings to fly".

With all Love for my Love!!! 

Introduction - Door to write ups

Welcome to my world of thoughts. When you enter from the door ,you arrive at a room, full of write ups. Its all about what I think, believe and live.Written pieces are the impressions of my heart, which are driven by real facts, my understanding to life and my spiritual existence. For those who know me, I have been a canvas painted with all sorts of colors of life. Each color talking its own story. The reds and pinks, the blues and greens, the blacks and grays. Yes as any other person,I have been painted with different shades of life. White gives me peace and comfort, that is where my soul belongs and where my heart resides.

So whatever you read and try to understand, is not what the world believes in,but what I believe in and what I live with. So welcome aboard, fasten your seat belts, let me make you enter the door that will take your through my journey- half known and half unknown.

Welcome!!!